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Randy is the author of three novels that
have been nominated for four Lambda Literary Awards. His next novel
is Walt Loves the Bearcat, a story of love, football and some
very potent daydreams.
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Pacers, Pistons Brawl
and Making Choices
By
Randy Boyd
For Outsports.com
You
either recycle. Or you don’t.
For the
longest time, I wasn’t sure why this phrase came to my mind whenever
I considering being lazy and doing something like not taking an
extra step to toss away the newspaper in the right bin, or not
bringing home the empty laundry detergent box from the Laundromat,
which or may not sort out their trash and recycle all those empty
laundry detergent boxes.
You either
recycle. Or you don’t.
What did I
mean? After all, I recycled somewhat passionately most of the time.
Then I witnessed what was instantly tabbed by the Image Keepers as
“the Pacers-Pistons Brawl,” the sports melee to end all sports
melees, to date, in America perhaps. First I witnessed it live, then
on (thank God for) Tivo countless times, then even more countless
times on ESPN SportsCenter—during which I came to understand why my
mind was reminding me all the time:
You either
recycle. Or you don’t.
It’s a
winding path, but ...
The Brawl
is still a baby, only born into the world days ago. The baby will
take a life of its own over the foreseeable future, influenced by
the many points of views of its conception. Baby Brawl’s spirit will
be around for a long time by our standards, buy just how baby Brawl
evolves depends entirely on the Points of View of every other person
in the world. We at Ballin’ would like to point out a few POVs we
hope don’t go underrepresented in educating the world about the
baby, and as a result, the baby about the world.
The point
of view of the mother of the baby, and every mother of every baby
that ever dreamed of playing sports, and followed that dream, only
to hear people talk disparagingly about their baby along the way.
He’s no
good. He’s a nutcase. He can’t shoot the ball. He plays like a
faggot. Take his ass out of the game, Jesus, why did we get this
guy?
A baby so
bad, one feels the need to call upon Jesus for sympathy. That’s what
a mother hears when her baby is on the field and she’s there to see
him shine.
The point
of view of the brother of the baby, and every brother of every baby
that ever dreamed of playing sports, and followed that dream, only
to hear people talk disparagingly about the baby along the way.
This
team cannot win with him at quarterback. That guy sucks. He blew it.
You fucked up the call, ref, how in the hell can you live with
yourself?
A baby so
worthless, it’s not even fit to live with itself, let alone anyone
else.
Attach the
word: cousin, uncle, son, daughter, lover, spouse, offspring—any
relation possible to a human baby, then think of all the loved ones
of athletes, in the stands, watching on television, listening on
talk radio, in the subway, at the office.
Every time
an athlete is attacked, at least one of the athlete’s loved ones
feels the strike. Something perhaps to consider next time you attack
someone for being less than a perfect person in your eyes.
Speaking
of the Pacers-Pistons Brawl—how dare you be so fallible as to
lose your cool with me!—imagine the Brawl unfolding in
slow-motion, all that internal and external chaos erupting as if
staged by the choreographer of Braveheart. See the anger and
righteousness of cause on every face? Every single person on that
tape did what they thought was justified in any given moment on that
tape. And every single person on that tape had a choice.
To strike
or not strike.
To strike
back or not strike back.
To throw
or not throw.
To walk
away or not walk away.
To lie
down in jest or not lie down in jest.
To call
people names or not call people names.
To tell
someone “don’t be sissies” or to not tell someone “don’t be
sissies.”
John
Saunders during his immediate comments right after the Brawl.
We make
the above choices everyday, the same way we make other choices.
To get up
or not get up.
To wash up
or not wash up.
To work or
not work.
To care or
not care.
In fact,
we make the above choices, and many more, every single moment of our
lives.
To call or
not call.
To reach
out or not reach out.
To do
laundry or not do laundry.
To see a
movie or not see a movie.
And it is
those single moments that provide the addition for the equation that
is ourselves (the subtraction, division and multiplying are another
story). And since we are creating ourselves in every single moment,
perhaps the following bears consideration:
The most
important question is not: do you recycle?
The more
important question is: do you recycle this very moment?
Or in the
case of those at a now infamous basketball game on a Friday night in
Detroit, what do you choose to recycle—but back into the
world—this very moment? Anger? Hate? Rage? An assault? A battery? A
counterassault? A metal folding chair in a crowd? A drink in a
souvenir cup? Intolerance for someone who’s obviously lost their
cool? An illegal act that might land you in jail? Your love for the
game of basketball? Your gratitude for being where you are,
literally and figuratively? Your desire to fall asleep alive and
safe in your bed tonight, your soul and the souls of your loved ones
lighter and freer because you made choices that prevented a chaotic
situation from getting much, much ... much worse?
Which of
the above energies give you a better feeling? Recycling rage or a
good night’s rest? After all, it’s all energy, and you either
recycle, or you don’t.
For more prose like this, stay tuned for
Walt Loves the Bearcat, a novel about love, football and some very
potent daydreams.
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